You are a child of God loved above all other things that He has created. You were created for a very special purpose, but you wont find any purpose until you find God. ...When the time comes when you finally invite Jesus into your heart, God will begin to reveal your specific purpose in life. At the time when God reveals that special purpose to you, you will begin to feel more and more complete, and you will gain understanding even to the point where this world just might seem to make sence.

God says in the Bible that "He loved us while we were yet sinners". So, that means that you don't have to be perfect to be a Christian or for God to passionately love you. Let's make it even more simple; ...there is nothing that you can do to make God love you any more, and there is nothing that you can do to make him love you any less. His love is and, has been right there waiting for you, but he wont force you to love him or for you to even accept His love. His love is nothing like this world might explain love. God's love is unconditional, which means you don't have to do anything special to have his love. You just need to allow God to love you, and that will start by you seeking Him.

...Well, I'm glad you asked! God wants a relationship with you! I think it can be explained best by this story; ...Picture this! There is a woman and a baby trapped inside a room. Ok, ...now lets say that neither the woman or the baby will ever age. ...The baby will never grow up, the baby will never learn to talk, and the woman will never have anyone to talk to, nor anyone to understand her. ...Ok, knowing how much a woman likes to talk, think about how lonely she would be, and how empty her life would be.

...You may even feel lonely like this, ...so maybe, just maybe, ...this might help you understand how God would feel if there was never anyone to really love him back, or even understand Him. Thats why God has us grow up, ...not only by us getting bigger in size, but God allows us to grow through our experiences.

...Now you might say that your life is aweful, or why would God let bad things happen to me, but if the Creator of the entire universe had to experience pain, and suffering, than how can you be expect that you would not experience such things in your life... Get to know God! He cares! He'll explain everything in His own special way whenever your ready to listen... So why don't you take the time to ask Him to reveal these things to you. ...And depending on how subborn you might be, and how good of a listener you are will decide how long it takes for Him to do what you ask.